You know, I don’t like it when someone says to me, “if you’re sad or upset about your current situation, look out there and see that there are many other people who are less-fortunate than you.”. I don’t like that mindset, about how we should be (more) grateful for having a life – at least – better than some other people out there. In a way, you are happy for other people’s sufferings. I find that very selfish and heartless. When I am sad or upset, I prefer to look up and find motivation from people that are more fortunate than me, and tell myself that “if they can make it, then I can make it too, either in the same way or in my own way.”. And being grateful is between us and God, having no need to compare our lives with anyone else out there.
I am not in a good mood this last few days. I feel like people around me is running very fast and while me is stuck, reaching no where. But then, to motivates my self, I happily think that there are many people out there that is less fortunate than me. And I should be grateful for that. But then I remember Diana’s writing like I wrote above. I think I change my perspective now and forever. I honestly am afraid of growing old with dreams I’ve not achieved, places I’ve never visited, things I’ve not done, love I’ve not share etc etc…because I realize the time is not much enough. What I should do is to make a decision and being responsible for that. And one conclusion before closing: the people that I envy to, their effort must be way harder than mine. It means I have to increase my speed, going the extra miles and even when I fall I should have my self back to the track. Good night!